Hey there everyone! Today is Sunday, there's not a lot of "news" to report, but it's been a few days since I posted, so I thought I would. We have some fun art projects planned for today to get Emi and Charlie involved in the auction at the fundraiser in Sept. We will get going pretty soon to go get all that stuff.
Nate's on his last day of carrots, we will start sweet potatoes tomorrow.
We've been trying to work him out everyday with stretches and some small resistance moves. He has some strength in his legs, but for the most part his legs bend pretty easily, not putting any weight on them. So, I'm working on trying to get him to put more weight on them, simply by holding him and bouncing him lightly on his feet. Hopefully that little bit of exercise will help, who knows. I gotta remember sometimes that his little brain doesn't work the same as a "healthy" brain. His just needs more healing and time. Also, I keep trying to remind myself of what he CAN do NOW and try not to focus on what he may or may not beable to do in the future. Or, what he used to do. I catch myself every once in a while being sad about not seeing him smile or talk. I never thought I'd say this, but I'd give anything to hear him cry a REAL cry (not one involved with a siezure). I remember clearly the last "conversation" we had and I miss that terribly. I know that being sad about the past doesn't help moving towards the future, but I just can't help myself sometimes! Sometimes I find myself feeling like I don't know who I am or what kind of mother I am anymore. I am constantly going through the motions and I forget about feeling the emotions. I want to be able to be the kind of mommy that Nate needs and Emi needs and Charlie needs. I just am so tired of all these different hats I wear.
I'm sorry, I know you all don't need to read about sad things, but I guess it doesn help me to right it down and share it.
I'd better get these kiddos moving and myself as well. Back to reality....
Love you all!
Carolyn
The DOG himself
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Keep your head up, momma! You and Craig are such wonderful people, and Emi, Charlie and Nate Dog are so very lucky to have you!
ReplyDeleteWe all love and support you, every step of the way!
All our love,
Kari and family ;)
I want to give you a big hug right now! I think it's okay to be sad every once in awhile, how could you not have those moments with everything you guys are going through?! What I know is that you are an incredible and couragous mamma and whatever you can't do, God will help you out with!
ReplyDeletePrayers and Love Coming at Ya!
-T-Buzz
Keep your head up sister. You are doing such an amazing job with everything you have been handed. An amazing woman, mommy, friend and wife!! Love you so much! Hugs. Sara Davis and famomdjal
ReplyDeleteI know you don't like to hear this but you are an inspiration to me for so many reasons and you should never doubt that you are a freakin fabulous mommy! Not to mention an awesome friend to so many! Give yourself a big fat hug from me!! Lots of love, Jenelle
ReplyDeleteI'm guessing that sometimes no matter what we want-we aren't in control, which really sucks if you ask me!
ReplyDeleteI am proud of the "kind" of mommy you are. I am proud of the "kind" of woman you are. You understand there is no right or wrong way to feel, act or live. You know that every minute of everyday is a chance to be, to grow and to saver the peace. You know that every minute of everyday is new and unique.
You know that when you question yourself you become more real, more aware and more honest. You know there is going to be that moment when hope turns to reality and faith has taken over.
I am guessing that you know that when faith does take over, love fills your heart and when love fills your heart all is possible.
I am guessing you know that sometimes what is possible looks and feels different than what you thought-what you wanted.
I am guessing that at times you wish someone else had been chosen to walk this path.
I am guessing that you know that for whatever the reasons this is your life and you will make the most of it.
Someone once said there are no challenges-just unrealized opportunities. Because of you, I am now able to understand the truth in that statement-thank you.
Tracy