Sunday.....

Hey there everyone!  Today is Sunday, there's not a lot of "news" to report, but it's been a few days since I posted, so I thought I would.  We have some fun art projects planned for today to get Emi and Charlie involved in the auction at the fundraiser in Sept.  We will get going pretty soon to go get all that stuff.
Nate's on his last day of carrots, we will start sweet potatoes tomorrow. 
We've been trying to work him out everyday with stretches and some small resistance moves.  He has some strength in his legs, but for the most part his legs bend pretty easily, not putting any weight on them.  So, I'm working on trying to get him to put more weight on them, simply by holding him and bouncing him lightly on his feet.  Hopefully that little bit of exercise will help, who knows.  I gotta remember sometimes that his little brain doesn't work the same as a "healthy" brain.  His just needs more healing and time.  Also, I keep trying to remind myself of what he CAN do NOW and try not to focus on what he may or may not beable to do in the future.  Or, what he used to do.  I catch myself every once in a while being sad about not seeing him smile or talk.  I never thought I'd say this, but I'd give anything to hear him cry a REAL cry (not one involved with a siezure).  I remember clearly the last "conversation" we had and I miss that terribly.  I know that being sad about the past doesn't help moving towards the future, but I just can't help myself sometimes!  Sometimes I find myself feeling like I don't know who I am or what kind of mother I am anymore.  I am constantly going through the motions and I forget about feeling the emotions.  I want to be able to be the kind of mommy that Nate needs and Emi needs and Charlie needs.  I just am so tired of all these different hats I wear. 
I'm sorry, I know you all don't need to read about sad things, but I guess it doesn help me to right it down and share it. 
I'd better get these kiddos moving and myself as well.  Back to reality....
Love you all!
Carolyn